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 Do you know that feeling when you realize in the middle of the dream, that you're just dreaming? That you can just wake up and everything will be different, because this is not a reality... But, what if you can't wake up? Or actually, you wake up, but it still feels like a dream? Someone told me I'm just tired, someone else suggested I might be a bit too focused on myself. Either way, this feeling is the reason why I'm writing these lines now. Time doesn't fly as it used to. Something changed and I don't feel the same. It's like I've been looking at myself from somewhere else. Watching myself, every step I take, every word I say. Judging. Trying to figure out what and when went wrong... I'm watching myself writing these words, so aware of every mistake. And that's my problem. Focusing on everything negative. Trying to figure out where is a problem, what I could have done better. What I could change to get where I want to get. But hold on, wher...