Dream
Do you know that feeling when you realize in the middle of the dream, that you're just dreaming? That you can just wake up and everything will be different, because this is not a reality... But, what if you can't wake up? Or actually, you wake up, but it still feels like a dream? Someone told me I'm just tired, someone else suggested I might be a bit too focused on myself. Either way, this feeling is the reason why I'm writing these lines now.
Time doesn't fly as it used to. Something changed and I don't feel the same. It's like I've been looking at myself from somewhere else. Watching myself, every step I take, every word I say. Judging. Trying to figure out what and when went wrong... I'm watching myself writing these words, so aware of every mistake. And that's my problem. Focusing on everything negative. Trying to figure out where is a problem, what I could have done better. What I could change to get where I want to get. But hold on, where is that? What do I want? Last time I was writing about people's desire to want more... I want more. I want to know what I want and then do whatever I can to get there. Whatever it's gonna be. Doesn't matter how much time, energy or money it'll take...
When I was a child I had dream jobs, as everyone else. I wanted to be a teacher. Unfortunately, considering my impatience and the fact I can't stand crying children right now, let's agree that this is not an option anymore. I wanted to be an actress. A dancer... A Zumba instructor. The more I'm thinking about this, more answers I could give you. Recently there is only one idea on my mind. Sitting in my own coffee/bar, writing my own book. So, what's really holding me to not follow this dream? Is it the money, experience, time? Isn't it the real dream what you should go for? Five days a week I get up and go to the work. Doing job I can do and I'm good at, however can't imagine doing forever. However, my dream job is not just a job. Is the way of living. And to get there, I'd need to give up something. You always have to sacrifice something, so you can get what you want.
Job is not everything. Even if I'd be sitting in my own coffee shop, working on that new bestseller, I bet I'd want more. Everyone does. It's easier to focus on job and career as that's something you can influence. A bit. Although, you never know what live will bring you.
So what would really make me happy and feel like I'm living my dream? The one. Love is the most important thing in the world. Call me silly, naive and too emotional, if you want. You can have the best job ever, all the money in the world and see the best places in the world, however if you don't have the most valuable thing in this world it will never be true happiness. So I'm in my bubble, thinking about life and trying to figure out which way to go and what to do. But eventually, I'll get there. I'll wake up. To the reality where I live my dream. What about you?
Time doesn't fly as it used to. Something changed and I don't feel the same. It's like I've been looking at myself from somewhere else. Watching myself, every step I take, every word I say. Judging. Trying to figure out what and when went wrong... I'm watching myself writing these words, so aware of every mistake. And that's my problem. Focusing on everything negative. Trying to figure out where is a problem, what I could have done better. What I could change to get where I want to get. But hold on, where is that? What do I want? Last time I was writing about people's desire to want more... I want more. I want to know what I want and then do whatever I can to get there. Whatever it's gonna be. Doesn't matter how much time, energy or money it'll take...
When I was a child I had dream jobs, as everyone else. I wanted to be a teacher. Unfortunately, considering my impatience and the fact I can't stand crying children right now, let's agree that this is not an option anymore. I wanted to be an actress. A dancer... A Zumba instructor. The more I'm thinking about this, more answers I could give you. Recently there is only one idea on my mind. Sitting in my own coffee/bar, writing my own book. So, what's really holding me to not follow this dream? Is it the money, experience, time? Isn't it the real dream what you should go for? Five days a week I get up and go to the work. Doing job I can do and I'm good at, however can't imagine doing forever. However, my dream job is not just a job. Is the way of living. And to get there, I'd need to give up something. You always have to sacrifice something, so you can get what you want.Job is not everything. Even if I'd be sitting in my own coffee shop, working on that new bestseller, I bet I'd want more. Everyone does. It's easier to focus on job and career as that's something you can influence. A bit. Although, you never know what live will bring you.
So what would really make me happy and feel like I'm living my dream? The one. Love is the most important thing in the world. Call me silly, naive and too emotional, if you want. You can have the best job ever, all the money in the world and see the best places in the world, however if you don't have the most valuable thing in this world it will never be true happiness. So I'm in my bubble, thinking about life and trying to figure out which way to go and what to do. But eventually, I'll get there. I'll wake up. To the reality where I live my dream. What about you?
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