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 Do you know that feeling when you realize in the middle of the dream, that you're just dreaming? That you can just wake up and everything will be different, because this is not a reality... But, what if you can't wake up? Or actually, you wake up, but it still feels like a dream? Someone told me I'm just tired, someone else suggested I might be a bit too focused on myself. Either way, this feeling is the reason why I'm writing these lines now. Time doesn't fly as it used to. Something changed and I don't feel the same. It's like I've been looking at myself from somewhere else. Watching myself, every step I take, every word I say. Judging. Trying to figure out what and when went wrong... I'm watching myself writing these words, so aware of every mistake. And that's my problem. Focusing on everything negative. Trying to figure out where is a problem, what I could have done better. What I could change to get where I want to get. But hold on, wher...

Are you happy? Am I happy? And what is real happiness? If you would ask homeless person if they're happy, guess what answer you'd get. But what about someone who seems to have everything? What is really having everything?  In last few days I've been thinking about this a lot. I should be happy. Why? Health. Nothing new, you've heard it many times and I have to agree. If you're not healthy you can't be happy. Proudly, I have to tell you, that in last six months (at least) I haven't been ill. Regular workouts, walks and (kinda) healthy diet. I like to call it making healthy choices. :) It's not always easy, but if it would be, everyone would be doing it, so it wouldn't be as challenging and rewarding, right? My lifestyle can seems a bit crazy to many people who knew me before, however they can't ignore the positive impact on my health. Job. I've got a new job. Not the best job ever. Not the dream job. But it's a job, it pays the ...

Wow.. Where to start. It's been a few months since I've added my last post but it seems like my whole life has changed since then. In many ways... I've always tough that and you probably now that I like to say, that everything happens for a reason. I still believe so. It's just that I sometimes forget, it's not that obvious to see what is the reason for things to go certain direction. Few months ago, I was working at the place where I (kinda) liked what I was doing, definitely liked people who I was working with, but as a typical human being, I wasn't happy. It wasn't enough. I wanted more. People always want more, right? We always want something more rewarding, challenging, something better paid, closer... Simply said, we want change. So I found reasons (or excuses) why to leave. Okay, let's be honest. That place was driving me crazy for many reasons and for quiet long time. So I'm glad I've left. No regrets. Especially with that idea of the ...

Few months ago I wrote an article. Just for myself. About my break up. About broken heart and time I would need to get over it. You couldn't read it, because I never published it. Tonight I decided to have another look at this whole situation. Break ups are never easy. Unless you are an heartless, selfish, egoist bitch. I believe I am not. It's supposed to be easier to get through the break up if you are the one who decided to finish it, right? Well it wasn't that smooth. Step 1 - Tears, sorrow, pain  I cried. We all do, I believe so. That moment when you realize something ended, the loss and pain you can feel and that powerlessness... Oh my god... Absolutely awful times, end of your life. Time, when you feel like your heart just cracked and it's bleeding. So you cry, thinking about great old times, remembering all joyful moments and beautiful memories and questioning yourself why this has happened to you... No matter what was the reason for the split up... Step...

(: Let's start with an apology for any grammar mistakes made in this article, please try to ignore them :) I've been watching one of those movies which made me realize how short life can be and that you never know, when, or if,  you will have next chance to say something to someone, so I've decided to say it here and now. First of all, I am healthy, young, free and happy. I am happy, just to be alive, happy that I can breath, see, hear, walk, smile, and I'm able to write these words... Therefore, I feel very lucky. I would like to thank to all of my friends and family, to everyone who is reading this. It doesn't matter if we have been together for few minutes, days, months or you have been part of my whole life. Thank you! For those extraordinary people who I can call  my friends, massive extra special thank you! I love you and I am so thankful to have you by my side and would like to remind you to never forget I am here for you, anytime! And I DO mean ...