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hello, It's been a while

Hello, It has been a while since I last wrote anything longer than an Instagram post or a message to someone... A lot can happen in five years. Hell, a lot can happen in a few minutes. Your life can change in just a few moments. And it usually does. Five years ago I left UK, came back home. After something happened, that felt like my whole life fell apart, I realized the importance of family and friends more than ever before. The importance of a place with people you can always go back to no matter how shitty things got. I will be forever grateful to everyone who made me survive those moments and maybe, one day, I will write all about those times... But not today. Today is about getting back to finding my own voice or simply writing again. Fifteen months ago I became mother. Funny, how just those five years ago, I would not even dream about finding the one, my soulmate, the love of my life. Now I am married to him and I am also mum of the cutest baby girl in the world, his daughter. La...
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Confidence, patience and positivity

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There's loads of topics I could talk about these days. When the world is full of crazy people and terrific incidents which definitely make you think. And maybe that's exactly why I'm writing these words. Are you happy the way you live your life? If you hate your body, job, relationship or generally the way you live, don't you think you're the only one who can change it? And if so, what are your waiting for? It's all about the confidence, patience and positive thinking. Believe it or not, it's true. Whatever situation life brings you, if you can keep calm and positive, things will get better. No matter what part of my life I'm thinking about, it simply applies on everything. Relationships, work, fitness... Confidence, patience and positive thinking are the three most important words I have to keep remind to myself and today I decided to share with you why. We all have dreams and goals we want to reach. But what are you actually willing to do to mak...
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Wake up... New year, new start

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So it's new year, I'm sitting in my new room in new house, thinking about life. I was meaning to write something for last month, but you know, the older you are, the more you realize how time flies... and things are changing! I'll be honest, last few months have brought me more changes and challenges than I expected. New years resolutions. How many have you made this year? It's almost end of the January, so how many of them are you still trying to keep? I know I started this year the best possible way, simply because I was with the person I wanted to. And nothing else didn't really matter. My new year's resolution was only this one this year: Find a reason to smile. Every day. There is always at least one reason every day, but sometimes I forget to look at it. I think, everyone has days like that. When it seems like everything is just pointless, whatever you're doing is wrong and you just hate everything and everyone. Not really hate just, you know what ...
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Dream

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 Do you know that feeling when you realize in the middle of the dream, that you're just dreaming? That you can just wake up and everything will be different, because this is not a reality... But, what if you can't wake up? Or actually, you wake up, but it still feels like a dream? Someone told me I'm just tired, someone else suggested I might be a bit too focused on myself. Either way, this feeling is the reason why I'm writing these lines now. Time doesn't fly as it used to. Something changed and I don't feel the same. It's like I've been looking at myself from somewhere else. Watching myself, every step I take, every word I say. Judging. Trying to figure out what and when went wrong... I'm watching myself writing these words, so aware of every mistake. And that's my problem. Focusing on everything negative. Trying to figure out where is a problem, what I could have done better. What I could change to get where I want to get. But hold on, wher...
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Happiness

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Are you happy? Am I happy? And what is real happiness? If you would ask homeless person if they're happy, guess what answer you'd get. But what about someone who seems to have everything? What is really having everything?  In last few days I've been thinking about this a lot. I should be happy. Why? Health. Nothing new, you've heard it many times and I have to agree. If you're not healthy you can't be happy. Proudly, I have to tell you, that in last six months (at least) I haven't been ill. Regular workouts, walks and (kinda) healthy diet. I like to call it making healthy choices. :) It's not always easy, but if it would be, everyone would be doing it, so it wouldn't be as challenging and rewarding, right? My lifestyle can seems a bit crazy to many people who knew me before, however they can't ignore the positive impact on my health. Job. I've got a new job. Not the best job ever. Not the dream job. But it's a job, it pays the ...
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Changes and new challenges

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Wow.. Where to start. It's been a few months since I've added my last post but it seems like my whole life has changed since then. In many ways... I've always tough that and you probably now that I like to say, that everything happens for a reason. I still believe so. It's just that I sometimes forget, it's not that obvious to see what is the reason for things to go certain direction. Few months ago, I was working at the place where I (kinda) liked what I was doing, definitely liked people who I was working with, but as a typical human being, I wasn't happy. It wasn't enough. I wanted more. People always want more, right? We always want something more rewarding, challenging, something better paid, closer... Simply said, we want change. So I found reasons (or excuses) why to leave. Okay, let's be honest. That place was driving me crazy for many reasons and for quiet long time. So I'm glad I've left. No regrets. Especially with that idea of the ...
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Single and happy

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Few months ago I wrote an article. Just for myself. About my break up. About broken heart and time I would need to get over it. You couldn't read it, because I never published it. Tonight I decided to have another look at this whole situation. Break ups are never easy. Unless you are an heartless, selfish, egoist bitch. I believe I am not. It's supposed to be easier to get through the break up if you are the one who decided to finish it, right? Well it wasn't that smooth. Step 1 - Tears, sorrow, pain  I cried. We all do, I believe so. That moment when you realize something ended, the loss and pain you can feel and that powerlessness... Oh my god... Absolutely awful times, end of your life. Time, when you feel like your heart just cracked and it's bleeding. So you cry, thinking about great old times, remembering all joyful moments and beautiful memories and questioning yourself why this has happened to you... No matter what was the reason for the split up... Step...
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